what about now

I haven't undated it for long time. I was kinda busy? no, not really, I just feel like I have nothing special enough till I need to make some memerable post for it

Today I just came back from Bangi, I found it was a nice place if I want to relax and get myself out of city's mess. Unfortunately, I made some mistake, the mistake which would make me not be able to go back there again.
Ok, I don't know it's really my fault or not. But I feel guilty about it anyway, just because my coming there, look likes it sets up everything. Everybody try telling me that "It's not your fault, don't be sad" or "It's done" or "It's gonna be alright, don't worry", bla bla bla... I know myself that I didn't think or worry that much about the problem,

But the thing I've kept thinking till now is "when you have someone who are precious to you, do not hesitate to treasure them as much as you can otherwise you would learn how painful of loneliness when you are left behind ...and alone" Damnit, I hate this kind of feeling, I don't wanna emo here, It CAN'T be helped.

I just wanna tell you that...
WAKE UP
Think about reality
This world is so wide, much wider than you think
You are already old enough to be adult, don't think everything will be at your side ALWAYS, you must be stronger than this to be able to satnd in this world,
If you can't, JUST GO HOME,
go to see your mommy and papeeee...
Poor girl, you'll never know you time is so short

Only today that everybody coddle,
Tomorrow you would be just fledgling with noone