Broken feeling, Broken night

It's really look I'm a big idiot, am I not?
It was me who made the decision. It was me who prepare everything.
...and it was me who sent you away.

There would actually be no reason for crying over it.
But why my heart is trembling as it's going to fall apart.

I cannot think about anything but you right now.
My tears're endlessly rolling down.
I do not know about anything anymore.
I feel powerless that I could not give you shelter.

Every unfavorable feelings happens to come in mind while you are not here to comfort me.
I feel unsecured.
It's like my emptiness that once was fulfilled by you are taken away.
I really can not do anything.
Only I keep telling my self,
"it's ok,
it's gonna be ok,
it's alright,
it's gonna be alright,
it's just for a while,
...and we'll be back together again"

That's what my broken heart in the broken night cry for.
I know this will never be able to reach you nor you will understand it.
Anyway I just want to breath out.